dreams diary 1

21092020


the name of the dream:

feelings for females


my heart went out to a girl child


she lived in an impoverished east european country


her parents or parent lived in poverty and didn't have the means to take care of her


the theme of the dream, feelings for females, stayed the same but the circumstances changed


in my late-twenties and meet a girl in her late teens


we go to her house to meet her parents


the difference in our ages makes the father weary of me


he is also out of work


he doesn't have a trade or skill


he has resigned himself to a low standard of living


his wife is in the background of the dream


she has a subdued demeanour


realise i can help the father


tell him i still have the tools of those trades from my early days as a self-employed man


he becomes enthused when he realises he can become self-employed


not only can he earn a wage, but he also has a choice of jobs


he can become employed as a window cleaner, photographer, wedding organiser, or in garden-management


he laughs at the idea of being a disc jockey


the last theme in this dream is, again, a woman/man relationship


the woman is in her mid-to-late-thirties


she has thick, dark hair, is slightly plump, about five-feet-two and has a light-red tinge in her cheeks


it is easy to see, at first glance, why a man's gaze might not linger


if a man looked a little longer, he would see what i saw


a woman totally at ease with herself


there was an assured pleasure hidden in her countenance


she still had the outlook of a childhood that was so well balanced it had formed in her an unshakeable view of the world


life, and everything about it, was good


she might have never known a man


the thought of being intimate with her thrilled me


the chance to fulfil that childhood love i felt for girls as a boy


i would know the moment our eyes met if she would accept me as a childhood friend


our eyes made contact


vividness 2.9 to 3.3 - participant and observer - the category of the dream: relationships () women ()