dreams diary 1


the name of the dream:

feelings for females

my heart went out to a girl child

she lived in an impoverished east european country

her parents or parent lived in poverty and didn't have the means to take care of her

the theme of the dream, feelings for females, stayed the same but the circumstances changed

in my late-twenties and meet a girl in her late teens

we go to her house to meet her parents

the difference in our ages makes the father weary of me

he is also out of work

he doesn't have a trade or skill

he has resigned himself to a low standard of living

his wife is in the background of the dream

she has a subdued demeanour

realise i can help the father

tell him i still have the tools of those trades from my early days as a self-employed man

he becomes enthused when he realises he can become self-employed

not only can he earn a wage, but he also has a choice of jobs

he can become employed as a window cleaner, photographer, wedding organiser, or in garden-management

he laughs at the idea of being a disc jockey

the last theme in this dream is, again, a woman/man relationship

the woman is in her mid-to-late-thirties

she has thick, dark hair, is slightly plump, about five-feet-two and has a light-red tinge in her cheeks

it is easy to see, at first glance, why a man's gaze might not linger

if a man looked a little longer, he would see what i saw

a woman totally at ease with herself

there was an assured pleasure hidden in her countenance

she still had the outlook of a childhood that was so well balanced it had formed in her an unshakeable view of the world

life, and everything about it, was good

she might have never known a man

the thought of being intimate with her thrilled me

the chance to fulfil that childhood love i felt for girls as a boy

i would know the moment our eyes met if she would accept me as a childhood friend

our eyes made contact

vividness 2.9 to 3.3 - participant and observer - the category of the dream: relationships () women ()